Words Are Powerful

I've noticed that people these days are having less and less of a filter.  I grew up knowing that you have to be polite no matter what and deal with negative issues later in private.  I know I've broken my own rules once or twice, but people, come on.  There is a thing called a filter for a reason.  Words can seem harmless but they can hit hard.

Tonight I had someone say something that usually wouldn't hit me in any negative way, but for some reason it was a slap in the face to me.  The words basically said that this person was better friends with my best friend than me.  (I know, that probably made no sense, but trying to keep people out of the blog). See?  Not really that big of a deal, but for some reason it rubbed me the wrong way.  Yes, I don't get to hang out with her as much as I want to because of how busy she is and the fact that I'm away at school from fall to spring, but I don't need it slapped in my face. 

I'm learning that I do have this emotion called...wait for it...JEALOUSY! That's right people, Sarah can feel something other than anger!  I don't know why, but for some reason I feel jealous when other people hang out with my closest friends more than me.  It probably has something to do with my territorial issues.  If that confuses you think of it in the way of a wolf pack.  I feel like the head of my pack, and my best friends are in that pack...(sometimes I really think I have dog/wolf qualities O_o).  There's no reason for it whatsoever.  They can hang out with whoever they want.  Hmm...may also have something to do with my fear of people wanting nothing to do with me once they've found someone else they want to hang out with.

Strange? Yes  Stupid? Yes  But still something that haunts me...dammit