Random Feelings...Don't Have Those Often

Well, its Thursday.  And after the day I've had I wonder why people even bother talking to me sometimes.  Friendships come and go and I really hate that.  When I become friends with someone I want to stay friends.  But I feel like a lot of people just want to be my friend for a while or as long as its convenient then just stop talking to me.  Perhaps its just me being paranoid, but I just feel like nobody will speak the truth.  If you don't want me around anymore then just tell me.  I'll leave you alone and do my own thing.  I'm used to it.

Things have been like that since I was in elementary school.  Didn't think it would continue through college years.  It's possible I'm just being paranoid or I'm in one of my lonely moods.  Who knows.  Maybe I'll not get on facebook for a couple days.  Just to see if anybody notices.  Not many people read this blog and I guess thats a good things with some things I post.

Alright.  I've done my complaining for the day.  I really hate when I get whiny...I feel stupid.  Geez can I numb myself completely like I did when I was younger.  Damn high school for making me feel hopeful.  Well, back to old habits I guess.